The whirlwind of life…

After little league ended and the heat of summer came, I’ve had a lot of time to lie around and think. 

#1 Realization – We need a couple A/Cs badly.  Four would be ideal: 4 little ones for Kitchen, Living Room, Ryne’s Room and our bedroom.  The issue is coming up with the $400 – $600 to get them all.  Then if we get one or two at a time which ones are more important.  It’s not like they are fans that we can move from room to room. Bleh, I really dislike being hot.  And Robert, if you claim one more time, that moving to the desert will make all the difference, I do NOT care.  Over 80 is over 80 whether it is humid or not.  I don’t like to be hot, period.

#2 Realization – I am a crafter, not just a knitter.  I have to deal with it and let myself be well, crafty.  The good news is I’ve signed up for a few ATC swaps to broaden my horizons.  So slowly collecting supplies – water colors, acrylics, sponges, brushes, colored pencils to go with my pile o’Sharpies & Mod Podge.  I don’t know if I want to get into a daily practice (which I could merge with a re-awaked daily pages practice, needs more thought) or if I want to make a date with myself.  i.e. Tuesday nights are supposed to be family game night.  Thursday night is knitting group (along with Saturday mornings).  I have a monthly writers group in there.  And am going to be adding a college course or two. LOL, yikes. But I want to have fun.  I don’t want creativity to be a chore or obligation (like the swaps & test knitting) but something to do and play with.  We’ll see.

#3 Realization – I have been feeling a bit lonely for my friends.  Many of my good friends are stay at home mothers, who get to see each other during the week.  So I am feeling out of touch, out of the loop and maybe even forgotten.  I want to plan a get together or three so I don’t have to wait for others to do the planning and fitting it somewhere in that nutty schedule I mentioned above.

#4 Realization – I need to start writing again.  Instead of waiting for the stuff I wanted transcribed to get well transcribed, I need to see if there are any new stories brewing in the back of my head.  Maybe try my hand at a paranormal mystery or something. Hmm…

#5 Realization – I have completely fallen off the fitness / wellness wagon.  I was in seriously rough shape yesterday (high pain / low energy).  Better today but not as much as I should be. 

  • Reason 1: Can’t seem to keep wheat out of my mouth.  Why?  Because most of the non-perishable convenience foods in our cabinets are wheat products. 

  • Reason 2: I don’t have a dedicated exercise area.  It can’t be the middle of the living room, the room is simply too small.
    • I was hoping to make a craft area/exercise studio out of our attic but the BIL needed a place so he is up there. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t resent that in any way.  I am truly grateful it’s there for him. But our plans of a personal space for me have been invaded.
    • There might be room in the basement but, bleh.  I need to keep my eye out for a light-weight carpet that I can roll up everyday.  While the basement is pretty dry, a couple times a month we get a hard enough rain that we get puddles down there. 
    • No TV down there either so no Wii nor DVDs. 

Ugh… it comes down to lots of excuses.  Need to figure out some cost free solutions.  Will chat with hubby tonight.

#6 Realization – There has been no Bitchin’ Witchen in my kitchen.  I never got my garden going this year… pots nor traditional.  And I feel I’ve lost my verve,  my sense of intention.  A lot of it is the heat.  But some is just plain sloppy laziness.  I hadn’t stirred with thought and power in forever.  Meal plans have totally gone to the wayside. Grocery shopping has been neither organized nor thoughtful. 

I just wrote on one of my forums that “Maybe time for a personal re-dedication ceremony to get myself back on the right track. A starting point to move forward from.”

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So today I’ve decided to stop thinking and start planning and most absolutely start doing. 

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